Ode to Women

I've been cooking like crazy every day since getting groceries last week, and needless to say, I've been eating well.

But it came to my attention that my cooking is a replacement for a social life, or lack thereof.  Sure, I have plenty of friends, but I also work full-time and when I am available to hang out, my friends usually are not, or visa-versa.  What about Tristan, you ask?  He tends to go through periods of completely ignoring one friend or another for a few months before making them his new best friend while he ignores someone else.  It seems that, right now, I'm the one he's ignoring.  It doesn't bother me so much, since I know the pattern, but I still miss hanging out and talking about the weirdness of reality.

Shockingly enough, I got an apology from the one person I'd never expect it from (or at least, sincerely) last night and it did mean a lot.  Roxi, as we'll call her, is the one girl who's made my life hell ever since Jake, posing as Tristan, and I started dating so many years ago.  Roxi and I were really good friends before meeting "Tristan" and made a pact to never let a man come between us.  Well, Tristan and I became close, and then one night we decided to take it a step further.  Our friends were all happy for us, except one.  Roxi was livid, and spent the following three years trying to drive a wall between Jake and I.  Tristan, upon his return from exile, was not up to date on the dramatic rivalry, but even in his friendliness with Roxi at first could not stand her.  Long story short, she claims she is over him and he is just her best friend.  She even apologized to me for trying to piss me off.

What bothers me still is when she said that she can't go overseas for three years for college, like she has the amazing opportunity to, because "Tristan is [her] BEST friend and [she] just can't leave him for so long!"

If you're over a person, you don't give a flying flip about going away for a long time because in today's modern age, we have something called EMAIL.  FACEBOOK.  SKYPE.  I want to go to Samoa with the Peace Corps, and even though I love Tristan very much, that is not what keeps me here in the States.  The ONLY thing keeping me from travelling the world is my sister and baby niece.  We're far enough apart as it is, I can't stand the thought of being even further away.  Tristan, on the other hand, I would miss dearly but hey, he lives his life and I live mine.  And again, modern communications is amazing that way.

I guess I'm just annoyed with women this week.  One of my temporary roommates broke up with her amazingly gorgeous, and equally sweet, boyfriend because "he's so effing dumb".  I almost slapped her.  So what if he doesn't know pinot noir from a Bud Light?  If a man loves you, cherishes you, treats you right and swears to stand by your side through hell and back, for pete's sake return the favor!  I want to just hug him and tell him he's better off, and possibly get his number and a date..... but he does like sex a lot and being a virgin saving it for marriage, that could pose as a problem.  Plus it'd be weird moving in on my roommate's ex, no matter how deserving.

And to add to my off-mood, I am very well aware that outside of a relationship, I am an amazing girlfriend.  Actually in a relationship as a girlfriend to the most amazing man on the planet, I'm an absolute bitch.

And I have no effing clue why.  *sob*