Stamina

After a 2-year hiatus on fitness, I'm fighting to get back into the game.

I am SO out of shape.

Fitness is a catch-22.  For example, I hate running.  It's uncomfortable, I'm slow as it is, and the terrain is never right (either too flat or too steep, not enough traction, too much traction, etc).  But running is the fastest way to shed pounds.  I hate knowing I'm not only internally out of shape, I LOOK out of shape, but in order to get fit again I have to go in front of other people to do so and that makes me want to avoid the whole situation altogether.

What's my main motivation?  Two things, the first one being I was once in amazing shape and therefore I know I can be again.  The second one is, without flexibility, strength and stamina, I'm a pretty useless half-breed.   I will never openly admit to Tristan that he's right when he asked if my only discernible ability at the moment is staring at people.  (It sounds lame but somehow it works every time to get them to do what I want.  I don't use it for much more than calming wild children into taking a nap).  Once upon a pre-college life, I could fight, I could blend, I could withstand a heck of a lot thrown at me.  Post-college-virus, I had nothing and I gained 60 pounds, lost my muscle definition and motivation for life itself.

Getting to my fitness goals requires a bit of creativity.  When asked by a trainer what my goals are, I have to say something along the lines of, "Oh, I just want to get back into shape, regain my strength and maybe shed a few more pounds than I had before."  To say the truth, "I need to get into excellent shape so I can protect an intergalactic prince from assassins, stalkers and other nasty folk" would not only be disastrous, but may lead to big men in white coats carrying me away in a snug jacket.

Tristan refuses to teach me the skills he has because "what happened in the past stays in the past".  And despite my inner voice agreeing that should I know how to do everything he can I would be more likely to abuse the abilities, I wish I could learn it.  Again, it takes incredible stamina to withstand the energy draining such an ordeal causes, but it's extremely useful for throwing people off track.  Should we train together...well, I think that's one big thing people are afraid of.  Tristan and I are difficult enough on our own; get us together or with more of our kind and good luck quelling our endeavors.